I know, son. [ And that is said relatively warmly despite the considerably cold nature of their natural afflictions. ] I'm proud of you, and I am honored by your work.
[His smile is obvious in the change in his tone, it's more friendly and sounds more like a man and less like a boy.]
Yeah? Together: that'd be perfect. Dad, you can show me how you do it. I've tried, I fucked it up... I don't have your skills, your knowledge. I want what I do to be worthy of you.
You think so? I didn't think of it as art. I just, I start thinking about her and I get so fucking angry. It's not, premeditated [he's read a lot about this, about crimes, and the psychology of killers like him and his father] like yours.
What true artist doesn't hurt a lot of people? You do know that the field of psychology was formed on top of blood and pain--just as many other fields of work.
You found an outlet for your anger. But if the end results do not contribute to your happiness then perhaps fine tuning your skills will provide you with happier results.
Every profession, hobby, and interest takes a few trial and errors.
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We can continue, now, together.
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Yeah? Together: that'd be perfect. Dad, you can show me how you do it. I've tried, I fucked it up... I don't have your skills, your knowledge. I want what I do to be worthy of you.
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But, son, don't sell yourself short. There is beauty in the art of chaos, misdirection, compulsion, ... imitation.
You will show me all you know too, son.
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But-- but I've hurt a lot of people.
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You found an outlet for your anger. But if the end results do not contribute to your happiness then perhaps fine tuning your skills will provide you with happier results.
Every profession, hobby, and interest takes a few trial and errors.
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[His dad is good, incomparably good. This is the most exciting thing that's ever happened to him]
But if you show me how to do it better, if we do it together, I know I'd be happier. I'd be happy.
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Son.